About

1. I am adopted
2. I like that I am adopted
3. I have never want to meet my “real parents”
4. I was 5 at the time
5. I didn’t even own my own underwear
6. I didn’t own shoes till my parents got me
7. My eyes change colors
8. I have always liked my eyes
9. I chewed my finger nails till I was 23
10. I am a germaphobe
11. I can not pee in the dark
12. If I pee at friends house, I turn on the sink, shower and fan
13. I can not pee in public toilets
14. I can not pee till I’ve looked in the toilet
15. I bleach my own toilet 6 times a day
16. I went on a 24 hour bus trip to Texas and didn’t pee the whole time
17. I was still drinking 48 oz cokes the whole trip
18. Once I got there, I timed my pee, it took 17.5 minutes
19. I have to look at my pee before I flush the toilet
20. I am way too obsessed about my own pee
21. I check my son’s diapers to make sure the pee looks like the right color
22. I am not for sure what I am looking for when I do that
23. I was doing heroin at 14
24. I almost died
25. My mom had breast cancer when I was 15
26. The day after her surgery my best friend committed suicide
27. He was sitting in my lap at the time
28. It has taken me 15 years to forget that day
29. I was married to a Jamaican
30. I did not love him the day I married him
31. I hated him the day the divorce went through
32. I attempted suicide 1 year before Joshua was born.
33. I would have succeeded if my friend Lisa hadn’t found me
34. It will tick you off when you fail at suicide
35. I was in the pysch ward for a week after that
36. I met my friend Leslie in there
37. Going there was the best thing I’ve done ever
38. I had my appendix taken out 2 weeks after my attempt
39. My family disowned me after my attempt
40. My mom and I are starting to be friends again
41. I’ve probably lost the rest of my family forever
42. I’m ok with that
43. My son Joshua is the reason why I live and breath
44. I am addicted to diet coke
45. I drink probably 5-6 a day
46. Ok, more like 8-9 a day
47. I eat ranch on everything
48. I like squeezing the snot out of my sons nose
49. I tell him I don’t
50. It gives me a lot of satisfaction to know I’ve conquered the snot monster
51. I like to inspect the color of snot that comes out of his nose
52. I like to debate even on the side I’m not on to tick people off
53. I like debating
54. I won’t debate religion or politics
55. I’m bipolar
56. I’m a hypocandriac
57. If someone I know sneezes around me, I wonder if they have cancer or something else
58. I call my pediatrician at least once a week with a question
59. I’m afraid my peds office will turn me in for being crazy
60. I go to therapy twice a week
61. I am only home an hour or two before I think about what I really wanted to talk about
62. I love my therapist
63. She is the only therapist I’ve seen on a regular basis
64. I hate men
65. I am also addicted to men
66. I have been since the age of 13
67. I think God gave me a son because he has a since of humor
68. I am afraid to clean my son’s whowho
69. I am afraid he’ll remember mommy inspecting his whowho
70. I am not afraid of him remembering I inspected his poop and pee for some reason
71. I have MIZZY tattooed on my lower back
72. I want another one
73. I have a short temper
74. I am working on it
75. Do not ask God for patience, He will test you
76. I drive way too fast
77. I can only eat things in two’s
78. I can only eat things if I put them on my plate
79. If I’m eating M&M’s or such, I have to eat them in color’s and two by two
80. I buy things in two’s
81. If an odd amount comes in the package, I’ll buy two or look for another brand
82. I don’t watch commercials
83. I buy CD’s and only listen to one song
84. But I listen to that one song OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER
85. I have to be in control of the A/C, heater, radio, cd player, windows in any car I’m in, whether it’s mine or not
86. I don’t like when I’m driving on the interstate and some one passes me
87. I will break my neck to pass them
88. I don’t sleep very well
89. I never have and it drives friends and family nuts
90. I am usually the life of the party
91. I am usually lonely on the inside
92. I am lonely 90% of the time
93. I sleep with the lights on
94. I am afraid of screwing up my son and he will in therapy
95. I hate it when people leave used Kleenex’s on the table
96. I will ask them to move it for me
97. I hate putting gas in my vehicle more than anything on earth
98. I have ran out many times
99. I am often called too blunt
100. This really doesn’t bother me