This isn’t for sympath..more like talking outloud
December 20, 2007This has been a long and difficult year and I’m ready for it to be over. I’ve moved (more than once), had a few heart breaks, and had a mild crisis of identity. However…nothing compares to what is on my decision plate right now.
I’ve put off fixing a back injury for 8 years now. Why? Fear. Back surgery isn’t a simple in and out thing. This is a major thing. I had my jaw reconstructed and that didn’t go over so well. I bleed a lot. Healing took a long time. Bla bla bla. Now this.
The only reason why I am considering it this time is because of Joshua. I can’t pick him up or carry him right now. That isn’t great parenting. He needs me for more than what I can give him now.
Yet? I’m afraid. And that is the simple truth.
I’m not saying this as a you should or shouldn’t thing, but if you do, you’re going to probably need live-in help for months. If you can’t find someone, I think the county may offer respite care? Check into it, hon. You can’t do this by yourself. I’ve recovered from a few surgeries since having kids and it’s hell. I also had 4 bulging discs at one point and I still can’t imagine trying to recover from back surgery while caring for the kids. Hugs!
Merry Christmas!